tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8565175422668043878.post1619719735890446755..comments2012-03-23T21:03:35.154-04:00Comments on Parking the Karma: She loved painting ceramics, cats, and dogs...Karma Parkerhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07821064445775350568noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8565175422668043878.post-45763021579118285532009-05-20T11:03:17.158-04:002009-05-20T11:03:17.158-04:00so many things Kim.
i love to hear your voice aga...so many things Kim.<br /><br />i love to hear your voice again.<br /><br />very close to home.<br />wanting everyone to be happy and celebrate is totally right, but unrealistic. <br /><br />i needed and need to acknowledge my husband's death in so many ways. it's a daily thing. he'd so not want me to be sad and sloppy, but it happens. he's with me all the time, but not...and i can't help but get really upset over that when it hits me. it can be for only a second, or a whole day and i'll have to do all kinds of mental and emotional somersaults to break it up sometimes.<br /><br />i had to make the decisions about Morgan's 'funeral'. we'd never had a specific conversation about funerals. family and friends were COMPLETELY SUPPORTIVE but i had to be the one and i still hope no one feels 'incomplete' with what i did. <br /><br />you'd have really liked him, Kim. wouldn't have been able to help yourself. no one could. *giant smile*<br /><br />your details are so close to what we did for Morgan. great minds and hearts. an afternoon filled with music, pictures and stories - and favorite doughnuts!! it was what i thought would make most folks feel like he was there and comfortable to tell their favorite stories and memories. more laughs than tears and even those were on smiling faces. <br /><br />no one grieves wrong and i hope folks can draw from the feelings of all those gathered that day, if they need to. if someone needed or still needs 'more tradition' i hope they can find it. i think of more memorials all the time. i won't be done for a long while.<br /><br />Morgan was sunshine. he just made you smile and bask. eyes closed. face toward the sky.kikksterhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17595076215580093037noreply@blogger.com